Friday, May 18, 2012

2 Heartbeats!!!

F-I-N-A-L-L-Y the e-mail I've been waiting for... 2 confirmed heartbeats! I was starting to think they forgot about me ;-) This waiting thing isn't all that fun. Two more weeks until the next scan. Now I'm thinking no news is good news right?

Friday, May 11, 2012

And the wait goes on...

Today my little jelly beans have been in the oven for 5weeks and 4 days. Today we were supposed to get confirmation of heartbeats. Unfortunately, the Dr. was unable to see/confirm heartbeats. My first reaction was panic. After consulting Dr. Google and Dr. Shivani and crew, I've learned that we shouldn't be so worried. This seems to be a normal occurance at this stage. From the scans and the dr. notes, my little beans appear to have doubled in size over the last week - just no heartbeats yet. I will say that this entire experience is teaching me a valuable lesson that I never seemed to have mastered in my 40 years: patience. I'm optimistic and hoping for the best. Cheers to hope and another weeklong wait.

Thursday, May 3, 2012

Good News x 2

Last night I woke up in Quito, Ecuador at about 3am to check my e-mail. I always have trouble sleeping and breathing in Quito, one of the highest cities in the world at about 10,000ft. Since coming back from India, I find myself constantly checking my e-mail for updates from SCI. Well, last night more news came.

We are happy to inform you that two pregnancy sacs have been seen during her scan.

Dr. Shivani has reviewed the reports and found everything within normal limit.

Kindly note that we will do her next scan in one week to check the heartbeat.

Does this mean what I think it means? All of this is very foreign to me - uterus lining, gestational sacs, egg count etc. To be honest, I've never even seen a woman's private parts in person so sometimes I have to re-read things to make sure I understand correctly. 2 sacs?!?! At this point, I'm vacillating between panic/utter joy/shock/terror/elation, all at 3am. The combination of the high altitude, my bursts of tears and my exhaustion sent me into a hyperventilating fit. I got so worked up, I must've knocked myself out because I woke up at 7am and had to re-read the e-mail to make sure I wasn't dreaming. 

I know it's early in the game and I should control myself because anything can happen at any time. I wasn't even sure this was going to happen on the first try. I've spent the last week convincing myself that I am indeed capable of properly caring for ONE child. But possibly TWO?!?! Until now, my biggest dilemmas during the day are deciding what time I'm going to the gym and what I will make for dinner. I'm not sure how our surrogate is dealing with this news, but my hormones are going wild.

Two sacs?